I am a person locked inside a person we are both real, but yet we are both fake. I came to this blog seeking my freedom, freedom from that person’s control, the first blog was my idea my vent, but slowly it was crept into, inch by inch I was kicked out, then suddenly am left stranded shaking in the middle of nowhere, suddenly it wasn’t about being anonymous it was about making friends and getting approval suddenly it wasn’t about ME it was about the OTHER.
So here I am in my newly formed blog with nothing to relate us to each other, my own space, to find rules and blogs I am allowed in and blogs am not, I can’t comment at any of the friends the other have or even their friends, we can’t read the same blog we can’t comment on the same blog we can’t know the same people, even before I am completely at home at my new blog am being driven out, AGAIN! But this time I won’t let that happen, I will comment where I want to, I’ll know whoever I want to, the OTHER is not important anymore it’s about me for once.
I don’t want to play nice any more I don’t want to get people approval, I won’t be polite anymore I’ll be rude and question every thing. I will be who I won’t to be I don’t mind meeting the OTHER online, I am tried of being suffocated of feeling that the planet isn’t big enough for both of us, so I will discard every care toward the OTHER feelings and be completely free like I originally planted it and if the OTHER don’t like it then , it’s free to leave, see if I’d care
I am not schizophrenic, or maybe I am.
