Friday, February 27, 2009

The Third (Tag)

THE OBLIGATORY PART: Go to your favorite search engine and enter your FIRST name and the word NEEDS in quotes (" [Your name] needs”), and see what comes up. List the first 10 sentences that make sense and then tag some of your friends - and don't forget to tag me back too! I followed instructions -this is what I got...


needs help but she is like a monkey given a dagger (that's just plain rude)
needs to attend nursery school and receive support with transition (No I really don't )
needs contact with other children and support to counter trauma of separation and return (no I don't)
needs her Zac Efron (who!)
needs a dose of lecture (I know I don't, or maybe I do)
needs your help (2tbara3 wallaw be gna)
needs ______ (don't worry! I don't know what I need either. )
needs not to wait too long. (To do what?)
needs to go see a shrink more than a fertility clinic (yeah I guess I do need a shrink but what does the fertility clinic has to do with anything)
needs at least the support of 30 families to provide about $100 a month on a regular basis (That Would be Nice, 2tbara3 wallaw be gna )

OK , it's revenge time, LOL just kidding, I tag zee puppet , gjoez and Ice queer.

Monday, February 23, 2009

The second, (Tag)

I saw that tag at Brownie, and I liked the way she answered, I liked her even more than I did before, Like the nice person she really is she didn't tag anyone, because that tag is a pain in the .... Neck.
but then she tagged me because .....
I have no idea why she did that but here it goes.

1- I am the moodiest person you can ever meet, this it makes it hard for me to answer any question of what your fav anything or what would you do if cause most times it's about mood.
2- I allow people to push me over a lot, but if I don't want to do something, I usually won't do it no matter who asked me to.
3- I have very low self esteem but I cover it well, with a lot of bull$hit about being a great person and loving my self
4- My dad was an accountant here in Egypt but now he drives a cab in NYC, I used to say that to all my friends proudly in school but now am ashamed to admit that I don't tell anyone in work what my daddy does.
5- My mother's Father was a Millionaire but when he died my mom didn't 90% of her inheritance, the usual of her brother ripping her off.
6- My mom was 28 when my dad left for USA, my siblings were 6, 4, and 8 month old I was 5.
7- I am a facebook addict, I have been at facebook since the late 2004 early 2005.
8- I like to visit people's blogs and not leave a comment and pretend I've Never been there, although it's a little bit stockierish I can't help it, I am curiouse by nature.
9- I hate it when people say I am a seriouse person, cause I used to consider myself funny, but lately I am begining to understand their point of view.
10- I wasn't always this selfish, but I think being the center of my own universe, I think it's my twisted way to over come my low self esteem
11- Although I mainly like to keep to myself I am very talkative and I go on talking forever.
12-Although I claim I want to change but deep in myself I am ok with all my faults.
13- My first (and Only) crush with to a guy I only saw for a week and after he left I wished that I never wanna see him again, becuase I didn't like the way he made me feel (happily , giggly and like a school girl)
14- I resent my parents a little because they blow their collective life away so they would make us happy.
15- I didn't know I resent my parents.
16- I feel most of the time that I am not in on a huge secret concerning life as a general.
17- I believe that I might go crazy one day.
18- I hate to admit that I am wrong (even to myself)
19- Lately I've started to believe that this blog is really therapeutic and when I write a post concerning any issue, it stops bothering me.
20- I can't wait to experiment life.
21- I believe that whether I died now or 50 years later, nothing in my life would be different
22- I don't resent the fact that am 25 and still live with my parents. I don't feel smothered by their love and I try not misuse the trust they gave me
23- I don't have a curfew but if i came home near midnight it drives my mother crazy.
24- I love singing along while driving even though people usually look weirdly to me and in summer when the AC is on they think am talking to my self.
25- I've changed a flat tire for my cars more times than I could ever count.

At last am done, Originally I intended to only write one line sentences and not talk about my family, but at the end I couldn't help myself.
Anyways, that's the tag people and like brownie I tag anyone who wanna do it. knock yourself out

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Apology


Yesterday I let someone down, someone I not only care about but also respect tremendously. That person came to me, confided in me bare the inside of her soul to me. What did I do? I undermined, mocked and disregarded her feelings. Every mean word I said I knew I’d regret later, I could see I was hurting her but that didn’t make me stop, I kept going until she begged me to stop, she didn’t beg me just once but twice even then I didn’t want to stop, I could see her in dignity trying not to let her tears drop , then I acted as if I have every right to be angry at her reaction. What kind of a person would do that to a loved one? I know, a very selfish person.
I must apologize not to ease the guilt (the guilt is the less I could handle after what I’ve done) but because that person doesn’t deserve this from me. It would be so easy to print this out and give it to her to read, but that would be the coward’s way out. She deserve a full apology a face to face one, one that’s not filled with excuses why I was such a bi@tch, but filled with regret and I need to own the blame and stop throwing it on everyone else. Would I change? I don’t know but I know that’s it’s about damn time I stop talking about changing and start working on it for a change.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Bordom ?




I've been in this weird a$$ mood for way too long. I am tired of EVERY ONE around. that include friends and family. I hardly Have the Mood to interact with virtual friends. I MAKE my self post coments.
it might be depression, but what is really annoying is I have no reason to be depressed about. I am being a spoilt brat who's bored. such bordom is the thing that makes people do crazy , dangerous stuff.
I have nothing else to say. no I do, but I lost intrest in saying them.
I am 25 do you think am too old to run from home? that sounds dumb.

I don't want to post this cause that would make me feel stupid, but i will. hopefully all this feelings will be out of my system

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

My Very First Tag

I was Tagged by U. and this is officially my first

favourite Colour: Black
Favourite Perfume (Guys) : Don't have one
Favourite Perfume (Girls) : Huge Deep Red
Favourite PJ brand: don't use them
Favourite Clothes Brand: don't have a fav, but if i have to, then it's esprit .
Favourite Person in the Entire World: Someone from my Family
Favourite Country: Spain
Favourite Car: BMW
Favourite Sport: I don't like sports
Favourite Sports Player: -
Favourite Spot in the World: My Bed
Favourite Animal: Horse
Favourite Movie: an interview with a vampire
Favourite Singer: Don't have any at the moment
Favourite Day of the Week: Thursday .
Favourite time of the day: Dawn if am awake and outside, or else Night
Favourite holiday season: Christmas (it's not exactly an official Holiday Season in egypt)
Favourite number: 2
Favourite food: Pizza
Favourite chocolate: Dark ones
Favourite Cartoon:The Last Unicorn
Favourite Blogger: Um
Favourite Icecream Flavour: Mucha / chocolate/lemon.
Favourite Mobile Brand: Nokia
Favourite Name: Zaen
Favourite Hobby: Reading / Music
Favourite Room in my House: My room
Favourite Fruit: Apples
Favourite Flower: dunno flowers names
Favourite Qur'an Reciter: dunno names
Favourite Ayah: Won't type it in English
Favourite Website: Google


I tag, zeepuppet and batates_777 :D ,